Friday, 20 July 2012

Outfit Post: Self/Jeans Acceptance

So here's a little thing you may not know about me- besides an extremely brief dalliance in second year of uni with a pair of grey skinnies that were about 2 sizes too big for me- I haven't worn a pair of jeans since 2007. In fact, I don't even own any. I wear skirts & dresses every single day & for every single occasion. Most people I talk to find that strange, and I suppose it is a bit.

Here's the thing though- I want to wear jeans. Until recently I always thought that they didn't suit me, because, if I'm honest, I thought I was too fat for trousers. Reading that back it is clearly extremely crazy, but that was always how I felt. Now that I am a bit older & hopefully a bit wiser (& saner), I am much less hard on myself and much more confident in general, & so today, as I was holding a really beautiful gold top from the Mango sale that I really wanted to buy but didn't have any jeans to go with, I realised it was about bloody time I bought myself a god damn pair of jeans. So I did. In fact, I bought two pairs.


I bought these blue jeans for £18 from Dunnes (which is, as far as I'm aware, an Ireland-only chain of shops, soz). Not exactly a massive purchase, I know, but I didn't want to spend a fortune in case I decide in a week's time that skinny jeans are not for me, but I'm happy with them for now, and it's nice to have something that I can team with flats & tees for everyday wear. Plus a big draw for jeans is that I don't have to worry about my skirt blowing up, which in windy & rainy Northern Ireland is a very real fear.

I also overcame another hang-up today, as my second pair of jeans, (black, regular cut, straight leg, I didn't get pictures of those on as the light was fading in my flat- I will soon though), were from Evans. I have always baulked at shopping in Evans because for some reason I was ashamed to own clothes from a shop that was for plus-sized women. I KNOW, CRAZY. I think as I start to get older (I'm 26 in like, 2 months... so weird) I'm more accepting of my body just the way it is. It's horrible & quite frankly, ridiculous, to go through your teens and early 20s so horrified by your own body that I wish I could go back in time & give myself a good slap. Or maybe a hug. Probably both. Such is our society though- it's only through educating myself more about feminism & becoming more aware of media pressure as I've gotten older that I've learned to try not to give as much of a rat's ass what magazines say or what society thinks of women who are fat & just be myself. I've still got work to do, obv, & I can't imagine myself ever wearing a bikini for example, but I'm definitely feeling more self assured as I approach my late twenties & that's enough for me.

12 comments:

  1. Those jeans are the perfect fit. You look lovely as ever. x

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  2. I love finding jeans for less than 20! Hard to do these days but so awesome whenever I can!! And congrats on your journey to accepting your body girlie!! Again lovely photos!

    -Kay

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    1. I actually got two pairs for under 20! The black pair that I didn't get a photo of yet were £17.50 because my mama got a pair too & there was an offer to buy two pairs for £35- delighted ha!

      And thanks :) this was definitely the most personal post I've made so far & I was a bit nervous, but I'm glad I posted it in the end x

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  3. they are really flattering! you should wear them more often! xx

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    1. Thanks! Yeah I plan to make jeans a part of my daily wardrobe from now on- I'm wearing them on an outing to the zoo this weekend! x

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  4. A great post! The jeans look great on you. I am similar to you, except that I have piles of jeans that I never wear. As I have got older (we are the same age) I have recently begun to accept myself too. I was so unhappy as a teenager / early 20 something, but now feel much happier. I would give my younger self a good slap and a hug too! xx

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    1. Thanks! It's definitely one of the upsides of getting older is that you gain more confidence in yourself. I guess we're becoming much more wise in our old age lol x

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  5. This is such a great post, learning about the femininity art movement in uni really chanced my view on how i see my body, maybe every woman should do some research at some point in their lives! Also you are totally rocking these jeans!! Xo Eloise

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    1. Thanks! & I think you're right- learning about women's history & feminism is important for every woman- we should all make it our responsibility to ourselves to learn more about it x

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  6. New follower and new blogger here! I love this post. I've been having my own struggle with jeans as well, nice to be able to find someone who "gets it" to some degree.

    Pop on by if you want I'd love to chat some more :)

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    1. Hi Kate, thanks for following!

      I think lots of women struggle with jeans- it weird because they are such a basic item of clothing that most people own but yet it's so difficult to get ones you feel comfortable in :/ It's comforting to know that we're all in the same boat x

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